Happiness can be touched, its within grasp.
Ok, no link to what im going to blog today. I just dont know why, that phrase impacted me quite a bit i guess?
IHG today. Good game guys! Although i did regret not participating in captain's ball. The team is....... CUI. Bleah. Guess me and gfs can do a much much better job i guess? HAHA. At least clinch a 3rd place laaaaaaaa.
But, sad to say, i did not end school with a happy note. I left school feeling grouchy about the happenings around me, couldnt even feel the joy when the emcee announced my house champion. Argh. W.H.Y?
Because i found out something. Something that may change my view forever. Or perhaps things had already changed, just that i refused to admit, and this a further confirmation of my denial - that our foundation is not strong enough to withstand any small setback.
Had a small talk with baby (if you think the above is refering to me and my bf, neh!), and i realised that im wrong. So wrong. All my presumptions had gone all wrong! Nothing much has changed, its the individual! Yes. Of course. Why did i fail to realise that till now? One word. Denial.
Argh. I know any further rants will result in a mess that is hard to disentangle . But really, for once i hoped to be approached instead of me approaching.
Im sick of taking initiatives.
It amazes me how much some things can affect my mood so much. That even a weeny bit, is able to keep me occupied for hours. So freagging disappointed. For all i know, i maybe referring to myself as well, but if i'm able to pin point MY mistakes, I'LL be able to amend them too.
Alright, i cant wait for reverse bungee with gfs on friday! Something i wanna try for years already!!! GFs = fun = craziness = video making = loads of laughter = LLTTM.
What i need is God now. Just me, myself, & my almighty Daddy.
P.E.A.C.E.
Ps: Self-reflection has to be done. Me & you.
Pps: cant believe i broke down because of this. :(
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